Festival of Lights

Silent Togetherness!!!

The paths were still wet by the fresh drizzles. The brim of the leaves still had the pearls of rain drops. With one shake or a little wind they would all shower down like stars. The rare blooms of the monsoon shone bright in the twilight. There was some freshness in the air. We sat on the Swing swinging slowly. It felt great sitting there, moving to and fro enjoying the mild fresh beauty of the evening.
I like to sit there with my son munching on our respective snacks. He sits silently with all his mind on the snack and it gives me my silence too to suck in the scenic marvel. May be he too likes these moments of silent togetherness with his ‘amma’.


These are the small moments of happiness of Life to be cherished and such moments are all the wealth that we can amass in a lifetime and keep it with us till the very end.:))

MY LITTLE BOY!!!

16 September 2009

I had been to my son’s school today to pay some fees and while I walked down the stairs out of the school I saw pupils walking into the school. As always a host of helping maids were standing through out the path from the school bus to the class room doors. I thought that their job was so pleasurable, to be in company of all these innocent & beautiful minds. Even though they do this daily, every time I see them, they look cheerful and interested in welcoming the toddlers. I noticed that some of them couldn’t resist but place a kiss on some of the kids' cheek.

Seeing all this with amusement as I walk down I see Sumedh at the end of the pavement with a alert look on his face. Helped by a Maushi as he calls her, he climbed two steps to the pavement and started walking towards another series of stairs. He saw me and said “Amma, Hi” and came to me. His grown-up-boy-like “hi” surprised me. He dint show his surprise at seeing me and greeted me in a professional way. I told him to walk to the class room with his friends and said that I would meet him as usual at our building gate. As he walked past I couldn’t hold back the little tears in my eyes. He turned and smiled at me once and then happily disappeared with all his peers.

The smile on my face which appeared on seeing him froze there for another half an hour. This was the first time I saw him without me heheheh!!!??? Yes, the first time I saw him independent, all by himself, responsible. My little boy, who clung to me every second, who needed me for every small thing, my own little part seeking attention 24*7; was now walking with small steps towards Life, towards being a free individual. He had grown out of me, but I think I still need time to grow out of him.

SOLITUDE

In the silence of the hour I sit and click and click around here on my pc. I listen to the sweet chirps of the blabbering birds below and there is a happy silence in the home. After a week long of talks and talks now it feels great in this solitude where I am with me and with me once again. Humans are social beings they say, but with all the social needs I think each of us need this solitude, to sit back in silence of our solitude and think or just enjoy this existence, to retrospect, to just relax. I enjoy it very well unlike some who might feel it boring to be lonely. May be I crave for loneliness sometimes strange as it may sound

It’s tough not to love you

The light that sparkles in my eyes
The spark that kindles my heart
The kindled soul that never goes off
You are that Light to me.

The thought that makes me smile
The smile that brightens my face
and lingers there to never go off
You are that thought to me

The life of companionship I foresee
I see u and only u by my side
In all the struggles and in glee
It’s tough not to love you

Just like that

I can still see that day when I was walking by the brook by myself and there you were sitting starring at the flowing waters…. Perhaps thinking of me… or lost in your own world of imagination…. Yes I can see you sitting there even now. The green waters of the brook reflecting the white cheeks and the rosy lips and those flying curly hair of copper……you looked so calm and serene just like Greek goddess sitting yeah like Venus sitting there in anticipation of a miracle to happen... yes then there I came and stood starring at you and seeing my reflection in the green waters you smiled at me not turning your head.. May be you thought that you were dreaming that I was standing there… but I smiled back at you and called your name softly...:And then realizing that it was true you startlingly turned towards me with that wonderful smile that I have seen no where else… and held my extended hand with your eyes cast down.. I couldn't help but feel amazed at the long eyelashes so beautifully curved. Felt like touching them softly….

Then we stood there hand in hand in our own paradise….. Just so complete and contained in our own world of happiness. Not a word uttered a blissful silence and only the flowing stream murmuring a love song……………..

A Heavenly Night

From the concrete enclosure
out I came, to the open
to the real Home of Happiness
strolled slowly in its expanse

full moon light, filled the glow
of gay and mirth all the way
bushes of flower on either side
barefoot i walked, a heavenly night

fragrance of blooms, intoxicating
beauty of the moon, breathtaking
light breeze with curls, playing
Oh! let this moment be eternal

wandering in this silver palace
Oh! now where have i reached?
duties of Life, I must go back
Farewell to my Sweet home of happiness.

BEGINNING OF A WAIT!!

The Rain goes tipper tipper on her window as if asking her to open the door and let him in. he has a message for her he says. She sits there by the window wondering what might be that he wants to tell her and why is he so desperate. He tells, I have come to you after a long long time, crossing so many lands, hills and oceans. I get blown in all directions from the wind who thinks he owns the sky. Such pains I endured to come back to you, but you just close the doors and sit there, not even wanting to listen to my talk. I know, u have taken me for granted, you know that even after all this negligence from u I will come back to you. So u sit there mum. Can’t you just once open your mind and think?

She ignores him and continues doing her chores, being deaf to all that Rain says. OK! He says you do your meaningless works, and pretend that you can’t listen, can’t see, can’t notice that I your Love is in trouble. I need you to save me. This time I go I may not be bale to come back to you. So please HELP ME!! HELP YOURSELF!!!

Yes, it’s true, I am more concerned for u my love. I am scared for you. You just act as though you don’t notice it... But yeah, one day sooner you will suffer. Oh I feel so sorry. I will survive somehow in some remote place unheard of, but what about you. Can you live without me? I am the light of your eyes, I am the smile on your face, on a hot summer day I am the elixir u pour down your throat, I am the fragrance of your body. How can u live without me my dear? So all that I ask is to just love me, help me come back again and again to you. After all that I have done to you, can’t you do this little thing for me, FOR YOU….???

She couldn’t take this anymore. The Rain drops were hammering on the door now. There was lightning thunder and then… yes there she could see his desolate face through the glass window. He was crying. Just for a second their eyes met and then there was darkness. Abruptly the roaring sound stops, a sad blank silence. She hurriedly opens the door. Too late!!!? Yes. He is gone. No sign of him to be seen except for his last huge drops of tears. She sits there at the open door cursing herself. Oh why did I let him go? Why did I do this to myself?

Yeah can u all see yourselves sitting at that door, now open, but once closed…when it needed to be open. Open mind, empty hearts, and sooner dry mouths… yeah!.. The elixir of our lives has gone far…this is just a beginning of a long wait!!!!

By the Beach

Lets walk hand in hand
Barefoot by the beach side
Lets be the waves of frothy water
That advance, recede and play around
Lets be the ocean breeze, Dance
With a host of casuarina trees
Lets be the rock, stand still
Make the big white splash of joy
Lets be that small boat, traveling
Against all the odd forces strong
Lets be here and exude Life, the spirit
Soak up all that it brings to us

Come!! Lets walk hand in hand
And cross this ocean of Life
Yes, you be there for me as I will be
Lets enjoy this sail on mysterious waves